The Dumb-"Smit" speaks

Still no reponse... Maybe I'm alone in this whole thing... and maybe that won't stop. Maybe I went after the wrong one. She met the infamous "list", but I never trusted that thing anyway. Do I sound bitter? Or maybe she's not allowing any distraction. I'm so dust

So today my day was kind of hard. Not as hard as yesterday, but still pretty difficult. We have been loosing drivers as though there was a disease running rampant and so, it sewems, they have done something to add trips which reduces quality of service and I always feel it deep. I've just spent a couple of days trying to figure out why I'm not performing as well as I had been and today I figured that part out (I think)
Anyway, I've been trying to stay in a good frame of mind throughout this ordeal, so I think happy thoughts, and when that doesn't work I go to my happy place... Guess who was there?
She's been there for a week,mebbe longer, I just hadn't recognized her there. So today I asked her, "Who gave you a map to my happy place?" But she's in Germany... Has she answered me yet?

Okay. so here is a glossary of some terms that I have become accustomed to using to refer to varioous stages of the state of "smitten"

1) Dumb-Smit:

At this stage the smitten is overwhelmed by the weight of attraction becoming severely inept and hampered in basic communication skills. He may answer simple questions with statements like "Not have way" (steve martin, wild and crazy guy)

2) Smit-Faced also Smit-eating Grin

That stupid grin that accompanies the first week or so

3) Smit-Head

Dumb-Smit, stage two

4) Full of Smit

Being at the point where you're willing to get the smit-paper

5) Smit-Paper

Marriage license

6)Holy Smit

smit recognized and sanctified by the use of smit-paper

7) Chicken smit

Often mistaken for being dumb-smit... not so much can't as won't though

8) Flipping Smit

Flirting

9) Smit rolls Downhill

This stage, I'm sorry to say, comes after the smit-kicking and is generally honed to a fine edge by consuming mass quantities of adult, mind altering beverages... wearing what are fondly referred to as beer goggles

10) Smit-Kicker

A confirmed bachelor

11)When the smit hits the fan

That would be... love at first sight?

12) knee deep in Smit

That point where all your motions seem to be outside of real time

13) Up smit creek

That point where you can't and as well don't want to, get out of it

I gave her a ride to her billet. She was only visiting, an administrative assistant and nanny, and I waited for the opportunity to serve (perhaps like Wile E. Coyote) and gave her a ride from point A to point B. A little conversation, a little traveling music- I don't know if looking you straight in the eye when listening is just polite, or if there was something of an engagement there, but if I hadn't been driving I would have gotten lost in them.
I'm so out of practice- I'm not sure how to read it, all I know is that it was a satisfying experience.

Somehow I got lost there in those beautiful eyes
Looking deep into 'em there is no chance for lies
The windows of her soul are b'out enoughto make to make me high
'don't know what I was thinkin' when we had to say goodbye

But here I am a white guy 'never rapped a little bit
I'm lookin' for resources that were never in my kit
Intoxicatin' eyes now I'm dizzy like I'm lit
I got no real excuse except my head is full of smit

I have never gotten lost in anyone's eyes before. I am learning perhaps the power of giving yourself into something, but my sensibilities tell me that this whole business is beyond the realm of possibility, but never underestimate the power of a good line of "smit."